It seems like something that is difficult to shake. At every life stage we go through, we continuously
have an uneasy feeling, and it’s sort of there constantly in the background. Nagging us continuously creating doubt, fear
and making us question our abilities. It
is an invisible dialogue we have no matter how successful or confident things
seem on the outside there is that ever pervading doubt.
I think this may be a survival mechanism, an animal instinct
to always be on the lookout. Nobody
likes to acknowledge this side of themselves, it puts you in a vulnerable spot. It’s the social media world now, where what
is posted is perfection, happy faces, continuous highs and good moments. We are bombarded with images and thoughts which make us feel like that is the true reality, when it is really just a small
subset of positive emotions. What is
shared is not the whole spectrum of sentiments or authenticity, not only is it a limited view, it is a filtered reality of that small window.
The human experience is very difficult to capture, we try in
our own ways. Pictures, videos, writing,
art yet nothing can ever describe emotions completely. There is always that part of our experience that
only we know that only we live and that only we actually feel. That is our inner truth, our unfiltered reality.
That uneasy feeling is actually our reality that we ignore,
that we consistently refuse to engage in discourse with. The participation of understanding yourself,
your true inner self is the first step of spirituality. It is the step that seems the most difficult
because we are so used to living externally, our image our reputation, our looks,
everything creating noise from the true reality of who we really are, and what
our real purpose in life is or should be.
Facing anything takes courage, but facing yourself is the
most daunting task of all. It is why most refuse to do so and continuously live in a state of superficial reality. We create a numbing environment full of
things around us, and put value on temporary objects. Our self-worth becomes less of the inner
truth, rather more about what we can project to society.
Our worth is not in our things, it is not in our
relationships, it is not in our accomplishments. Our worth is something we have within, that
we are born with, it is just given to us for free and that is probably why we
take it for granted. It is too simple so
we make it complicated that is a gift we have as human beings, to complicate
simple things.
The only way to cure the uneasy feeling is to embrace it,
own it, and understand it. Applying the
coating of acceptance will begin to bring some peace and contentment. In an otherwise noisy world silence is the
key, it is the only truth.
